TJ

tommyboyw @ 2004-12-13T22:52:00

2004-12-14T04:00:51Z

"And I will not be silent, and I will not be quiet any more. And I will not be silent, and I will not be quiet any more. And I will not be silent, and i will not be qiet any moe. And i will not be silet, and I will not be quiet any more...no any moe...no any more, eh, eh ,eh ya...."

Thats what I want to do all that time.

-TW-

hmm....

2004-03-01T04:30:40Z

boy o boy....highschool is soooo much fun...ya know.....
well i dont so if u do know could u please let me in on the secret....that would be cool.

so i look around at people...people i know and people i would say are my friends and i know would say they are my friends but it is interesting how things actually play out in life.

talk is cheap. one thing i have definatly learned through experiance. now dont get me wrong...word can make a big difference and are very powerful, but u can say all that u want but if u dont back up what u say with actions then your words mean nothing.

i see people that are my friends or whatever and that i hang out with and ill be in a not so great mood and they will notice it and be like...i dunno....most of the time it is something like"if u need to talk im here." i dont know about other people but me, definatly me, and i think most other peole do just go to someone and poor out their guts and feelings to someone. it isn't just how things work. for me u definatly have to ask and ask and maybe even ask again....if u want to help me with my problems usually u have to try and i think that is how it is for other peole too but i could be wrong. to me saying "im here if u want to talk" helps out the person who said it more than the person who hears it. that is one thing that pisses me off. not that statment in general just pretty much all statments that are said to make themselves feel better rather than helping the other person. pretending to care and feel and pretending to want to help when really all your statment is, is bullshit. a lie to make you feel better. to clear your mind of all guilt. You pussy. thats pretty much what u are. now im not really talking to all of u out their just to one unnamed person out there.

so highschool....not so cool. i dont mind the school part actually. like this simester does suck because after 4th period i usually learn nothing and am very bored but the part that i hate about highshool is mainly the perople and the atitudes. just the common mind of the average highschooler. i really cant wait to get out of here because right now it kinda sucks. their a few really cool people but the only problem is that i would like to see them more often then i see some other people but that is just not how the world works for me.

people who were cool this weekend.
-josh h. for letting me go to his house and play poker.-
-my uncle jeff who also let me play poker and i won quite a bit.-
-kaite danko for having me over to her b-day party.-
-leslie files...sorry i cant spell ur name....no need to say why their.-
-and sonya. well sonya is just a cool girl and their is no need to explain why again but im not sure i could explain why even if i wanted to.-

*www*
Initative. im not sure if thats how u spell it but u know what i mean. when u take initative. it is definatly a good thing and could be one of those things where u back up what u say.
And again talk is cheap.

I'll see you all later.
-TJ-

........

2004-02-16T04:10:06Z

im not really sure what to say right now. im kinda bored but content at the same time...semi anyways. well yesterday sucked so i will just tell u that i was super uber bored and had nothing to do and no one to talk to. everyone was hanging out with their lovers or whatever and i was pretty bored. the most bored i can remember being in a long time. so yea we will just leave that at that.

today was better. i always like sundays. i get up go to church and do whatever and then later on go to CT. and sundays usually seem to be nice and sunny. even though it is cold it still is sunny almost every sunday. i think it is a blessing from god. definatly feels like one.

today after chuch i went and hung out with jed a little bit and took some random pics for photo. i went to CT after that was pretty cool. it sucked cause not that many people were their. it was good regaurdless.

after that i went to mcdonalds....but the real one....yea i went their with sonya and alex and a bunch of the naga guys and a few other people were their too. after that their wasn't much to do because everyone was buisy with someone else and so i just went home. kinda sucks but not as bad as yesterday.

on just a random note....everyone i would just like to tell u that me and sonya are definatly married. dont listen to what she tells you, listen to me. 'til death do us part o yea.
if she says we are not dont listen to her. dont worry sonya even though u are a dirty lier i still love u.

*www*
so this is to everyone. not just who u think im talking to...im telling this to everyone. everyone who is going out with someone and everyone who isn't going out with someone. if u are or if u do...open ur eyes and just look around. its not that hard. u get so caught up in ur relationship that u cant even see the people around u and everything with them just kind of slowy goes down the drain...it could go fast, it all depends on how much u choose to ignore other people. u think what u do with someone else only affects you and that other person...and i kind of wish that was true but it definatly is not. everyone needs to realize that everything u do affects everyone around u. so yea if ur read this think about what i said. weather u are goin out with someone or u aren't. i think if you just keep this in mind everything would be a lot smoother...but that is just my thought, i dont know how other people see this. feel free to reply and tell me what all of u think because i really want to know. weather u disagree or agree or a little bit of both u should reply cause im interested.

"Don't worry about me....I can deal."
-Tom-

tommyboyw @ 2004-02-14T18:03:00

2004-02-14T23:37:40Z

i stupid....
i definatly am.
its like when it comes to this no logic enters my brain.
no thought comes in and i dont look to see the future. i dont want to i think, at the time im sure i dont want to.
today i wish i had. i wish i had thought ahead and looked and saw. saw what tomorrow would bring. now, tomorrow is today and i can see what it has brought me. i can see what it is now. i thought it would be fine and i would be fine but not so much. i thought tomorrow wouldn't bright me anything so then i wouldn't have to look. look and see what was ahead. if i only would of thought, then maybe i would of seen it but i didn't. i didn't want to. not at the time anyways.

so raine....yea i definatly want to do that thing u said i should do. well u might not of said it, but u did.
yes i want to become un-__________.
u know what im talking about. it will be hard but i think i can do it. u can help me too...that would be nice. and everyne else can just shut up if u think u know what im talking about. u can ask me if u want but if u keep assuming im gunna get really pissed off because everyone decides to assume how i feel and guess what everyone......ur wrong.....ur wrong like 98% of the time so i think u should all just stop.

on another note. Christine Sanda is really cool. Thats all.

*www*
so i dont really have any good words to tell u that relate to anything at this moment so i will tell u this.
Life is very ironic. it might suck...it might suck a lot...but usually i can find something that is ironic in all of those sucky situatiosthat i have to make them not so sucky. it really helps a lot even though i dont think it sound like it does. jus try it. the only thing that really sucks is when u cant find anything ironic....then it must be pretty bad...at least for me thats when i know.

"One day at a time"

but man...what a long day it has been.

-Tom-

red hott....

2004-02-09T21:29:36Z

Hit me you can't hurt me!

suck my kiss.

Kiss me please, don't hurt me.

Stick with this!

Is she talking durty?

Give to me sweet sacride bliss that mouth was made to suck my kiss.

-Red Hott-

It's Nothing, and means Nothing.

2004-02-06T22:27:25Z

Five days.
What's five days.
It's nothing, it's a school week.
It's 1/6 of a month.
It's no time at all.
In retrospec it is a spec, a glimps of dust on the negative that is invisable to the naked eye.
It's so short.
It's no time at all.
But it's too long for some people.
Just to long.
Zero days....Five days...not really a difference to me.
Only to to fill your heart with joy.
So you can sleep at night.
What's five days?
Nothing.
Although....
It is longer than three.
Im not sure what was worse the three or the five.
They are both no time at all but they are just too much time for some people.

-Me-

falseness...

2004-02-05T02:16:41Z

yea if thats a word anyways, or if i spelled it right. that just really sucks.
im not talking about when people lie or misslead, even though that does suck. im talking about something else. no one is lying to me or nothing like that. it is different. its when my thoughts go off and take the helm themselves and i have no control where they go. they are leading me to such a great place that i dont even pay attention that its not real. i could try to stop them but im not even realizing it at the time and even if i did im not sure i would stop them. they are taking me to such a great place....but....its not real. its not real and soon i realize this. after this happens it is 5 times worse. instead or realizing reality like i did before, i thought different and now that i know that different reality isn't real it is much worse. i think i am getting use to it though. it happens so often i think im kind of use to it. but not really. it is nothing that you can fully get use to but i think the entesity of it making my day much worse has lessened. it is likea dream, which i have more often than usual as well. i cant control what i dream and when i wake up i realize that it isn't real. its so bitter sweet. raine told me today that she had a dream and it wasn't scary nightmare stuff but i guess something was goin on with me and she told me that she woke up crying because it really sucked. my dreams aren't like that and they aren't like nightmares either. they are good dreams. im in such a peacful place when thay come and i cant tell because i cant see myself when im sleeping but im sure i have some kind of humongus smile across my face. they are bitter sweet because when i wake up they are gone and i no longer have them. they vanish so quickly and all i am left with is this false thought to hant me for the rest of the day. until i go back to sleep and have another dream or my thoughts take me some place that i probably shouldn't go. it's great at the time but then it is gone. then it is bad and hanting, it is false.
Falseness.

*www*
well for starters i would try to avoid the situation that i am in right now, whatever you think that is. take it from me falseness is not a good thing. im not sure how to avoid it but i would try if i were u.
try to do things even if they are hard to do. you will feel much better after you do them believe me. i still have to do something hard but im sure once i get up their and do it i will feel much better. regardless of the outcome.
you think things are gunna be really bad but some of the time they are much eiser than they seem. hopefully that thing i have to do will be easier than i think.
Again just try to take things one day at a time.

Just Do It.
-Tom-

girls not "girls"

2004-02-04T01:09:06Z

girls are very confusing. like im not talkin about "girls" im talkin about girls in general. lets think of all of the least logical and smart desicions and that is what girls do. their is no rythem or ryime to what they do or decide. yea..."lets pick the guy who is the "bad boy" and treats me like shit over the guy who is kind to me."

"lets have fun and hang out with the guy who is an asshole to me instead of the that other guy who is nice to me and stuff.....how can that be a good thing."

lets have some kind of rational thought here ladies. common. thier are so many steriotypes and im not callin all you ladies out their "girls" but a lot of you couldn't prove me wrong if u wanted to. now this doesn't mean that i hate you or am made at you or look down at you. im just tellin you what im thinking and how im feeling. i love girls and that is the truth. sometimes i think i love them too much and sometimes i think that i love them even when i shouldn't but...i still do. ok im done talkin i guess.

*www*
ill try to make a few short and sweet points.
i think this week is goin really long but 5 days in real situations is not much time at all.
dont get cought up in things. everything you do and everything u do with another person doesn't only affect u it affects everyone around u as well.
lets see...what else.
boys and girls are very different but im sure u all knew that.
dont do things out of pitty. no one wants to be pittied and so you should make sure u never do anything because of that even if u are just trying to help. i think it is worse than doin nothing at all. i dont think anyone wants to be pittied so do things because u care for that person not just because they are sad and u feel bad. if you do what u do because of this reason then u did it to make urself feel better not because u care for them dont pitty people. it is bad.

hopefully those were some wise words...not really all that sure but whatever.

IM OUT
-Tom-

perspective

2004-02-03T04:27:09Z

it's all about this. yes what you see but also how you see it.

so i have a freiend and i dont think he would mind if i talked about him because its all good things and he is a pretty easy goin guy. thats right you guessed it, it's jeremy. yea a lot of people look at him and think he is goofy. and sometimes he is but thats not a bad thing. sometimes they take his goofieness and make it out to be stupid or foolish and they would just be wrong. i have known jeremy for about 6 years or so and i think that i know him just as well as most anyone else. he sometimes says things that dont make any sence and some people critisize him for that but i have known him for such a long time that i understand him even when his words come out fumbled. the point is most people who first see jermey see a foolish kid but i know jeremy to be one of the most kind hearted persons i know. most people cant see that. they dont know all the jeremt their is to know. they dont know this because they cant see.

its all about perspective. it changes how you think and feel about every situation.

*www*
try to find out all their is to know and see all their is to see. find the best point of view and the right perspective to look at things.
if you can do this EVERYTHING....will just fall into perspective.

-Tom-

tommyboyw @ 2004-02-02T21:05:00

2004-02-03T03:04:45Z

someone's always commin around here trailin some new kill

says i've seen ur picture on a hundred dollar bill

whats the game of chance to you and him as one

of real skill

so glad to meet you angeles

pickin up the ticket shows their's money to be made

go on lose the gamble thats the history of the trade

did you add up all the cards left to play

to zero

somethin somethin somethin...

angeles.

-Elliot Smith-
"angeles"

thats a cool song.
i will see all of you later.

-Tom-

tommyboyw @ 2004-02-01T23:08:00

2004-02-02T05:03:37Z

I can talk about it just fine. ill be fine. it's like talking about who won the super bowl. thats right marcy i dont care about pro football. it sucks. i dont care who wins or who won. it doesn't matter to me and that is how it is when i talk to people. but that is only when i talk about it with other people. just say what i think and what i feel. it is what i feel but i show or feel no emotion at the time. at least not deep or sad emotions. i say thats ironic and can smile and laugh about the whole thing. because when i talk about the super bowl with people who arn't playin in it, then its like i dont care.

im fine until i see the players. i see both teams in the game. when i talk to the players i do care and i care very much. i can no longer laugh about it. its game time and their is no joking around. it is impossible to joke.

i wish i could joke at this time. i cant. i care to much and seeing the people who are playin in this game only reminds me how much i care and how much i feel like im loosing. it really blows.

so just im gunna change sujects now because i was talking to someone and lost my train of thought.

i want to hurt this kid bad.
and no its not that kid ur all thinking of.
if i hear about this one more time im gunna snap and he is gunna feel it. he is gunna feel it and wish he would of thought twice. wish he would of listened to me.
and again it isn't the person u are thinking of.
this kid is a prick and i want to hurt him more then i think i have ever wanted to hurt someone else. the shit is gunna fly and its gunna fly soon. it will be a mess and it could suck to clean up but its gunna happen. its gunna hit the fan and fly. this is the last strw and im done. its done. its not the right thing to do but im gunna do it because im done. once more he has and i dont care what people tell me or how much they plead to me. i dont care how much they care about him because when u mess with my friends u will pay. its over and i cannot stress this enough. his last warning will come this week and after that he will decide. he will decide his fate. i will always be able to look back at this entry and will look back at this entry to remind me of hid warning and to remind me that now. his fate is in his hands on this matter. he can fuck his life up as much as he wants but u dont screw over my friend. u dont mess with them. let this be a warning to u as well. its fine to give people what they deserve but dont give them what they dont. dont fuck with them or u will have to fuck with me. and i know u all can tell im pissed because i dont swear. it will happen. this week it will happen. i promise to myself it will and it will all probably hit the fan.

*www*
stand up for what is right. try to find the right way to do it first. you might have to do it the wrong way, but i still think u should do it. this one is up to u to decide. its just a thought not definate wise words so i will tell u this.

every situation is different and look at them all individually. try to find the best solution and take it. look and think before u act on things.

it has been an interesting day.

-TJ Wood-

bam!!!

2004-02-01T05:39:15Z

i got shot.

i got shot bad.

so i went to a poker game tonight at christine's house and had a pretty good time but i lost a bit of money. i think i should make like a $5 limit on myself but i didn't tonight and i payed for it. but not too bad. i only lost 7 dollars but thats still a good amont of money to me because i dont really have a job ya know. but its all good. i had a pretty good time. i was pretty sure i was gunna lose tonight. subconciously anyways. like i didn't have the greatest day and i tried to think really positively when i went to the game...and i was but the not so great part of the day effected my cards. im not really supersticious but im positive that is why. if i would of had a better day i think i would of gotten a little better cards. at least some i could win a little money with. it kinda sucked.

so yea today i got shot. or at least thats what it felt like.
i had fun at the poker game but i would of had more fun if i would of won...ya know.

i would like to dedicate this next portion or whatever this is to a cool gal named raine.

yea everyone knows raine is a cool girl. i would just like to emphasize it today. we hung out friday night and i had a really good time. we went to mcdonalds and talked a lot. we saw diddy there and some other random people i didn't really know and that was cool. we went back to michael's but everyone was gone so we stayed at my house a little while and then i took her home. i dont think it really matters what is goin on in my life but when i hang out with raine i always have fun. i like it. yea we had good talks and fun times.

*www*
well im not really sure what to tell you. i could put stuff in here that directly is about me and that i believe...and if u know me and u know whats goin on u will understand. but it could make things screwed up in an already tightly screwed situation if ya know what i mean. so i think im guna try and not do that. try and take my own wise words of wisdom. i want to lash out at people so bad. and maybe i should but my logic right now tells me i shouldn't. so...www....even though u want to do something really badly, maybe u shouldn't, maybe u should think just a little before u speak or act about how this will effect you and your peers around you. sometime you should just do what you want.

-im out-

"One day at a time."

2004-01-30T04:39:30Z

"One day at a time."

a really great man said this and im trying to follw it but its not the eisiest thing to do.
im trying though. i think if he can do it then i can. hopefully when i dont think i can i will just look back at this and realise i can. realise that if he can then i can.

so..

im not the smartest guy in the world but i dont think people would say im dumb. i wouldn't consider myself dumb. im not saying this to try in boast just to explain something. its a good thing because i can see things sometimes before they happen, but it can also be a curse. i mean if u see something thats happening that is bad tbefore you would normaly see it then its good because u see it before it happens so it doesn't blind side you. but...u get to feel not so great for that much longer. also...i said i wasn't really smart whitch means i can be wrong just like everyone else. whitch means i could maybe put things together that fit...but are not right and see something that is bad but not really there.

it sucks because a lot of the time i am right and i dont want to be.

so...

i try not to think about things like that. about tomorrow. im just trying to take it one day at a time. even though it is hard sometimes.

*www*
ill be shorter this time and just repeat part of the last one and part of this entry.
"One day at a time"
-A great man-

tommyboyw @ 2004-01-28T22:39:00

2004-01-29T04:13:26Z

whats goin on everyone. how have u all been?
im ok. cant complain too much. today was an ok day. lindsey was gone and that kinda sucked. i tried to call her but she didn't answer. hope i see her at school tomorrow.

i was bumed out when i figured out that i had a band concert today and didn't know about it until 5th period. the part of that, that really sucked was that i could hang out with raine because i had to go to the concert. i did have fun when i was there because the jazz band played really good music and i like jazz music but i still wish i could of hung out with raine.

i really like music. i have been listening to cool songs on my computer and am goin to make a cool cd. even though i have already done that and the cd wasn't that cool....this one is gunna be cool. its gunna be like my relaxing/chillin CD.

so i dont think anyone got the math homework tonight. i dont think danny knew anyone who got it.....i dont know anyone who did...and joey nichols called me asking for it i think. its just a big mystery. hopefully wright dog wont check it or a lot of people are gunna be screwed...including me like always.

so i think im gunna try and give wise word of wisdom at the end of all my journals. or at least as wise as words as i have.

*www*
things in life are not simple, not easy and not always fun to deal with. care about things but try not worry. things will always get better. just relax and take a deep breath. know this and life will seem sipler, easier, and more enjoyable.

"One day at a time"
-Dan Wood-

Im out
-TJ-

well...

2004-01-26T05:27:36Z

A loss for words. im not really sure what to say. not too many people read this but most of the ones that do probably know whats goin on. shoot some of u probably knew more that i did sooner than i did. im not sayin this to piss people off or make people upset. im just talkin. u know someone told me a story one and ill kind of relay it to u.

so this guy liked this girl and the girl was like im not really sure i want to be in a relationship right now. and the guys like thats cool lets just be friends. but he still liked her but he was alright just being her friend. the guy isn't from around here but the girl is. see the guy is from another state but he is living here now. he hadn't talk to the girl for a little while and one day she called him and asked if he wanted to hang out. he was yea thats cool. this girl still lives in ohio but not around here and she was in town so this guy was getting happy cause the girl was on a trip for a few months and they hadn't spoken in a little bit. they talked and she said that their was this other guy on the trip from the same town the first guy was from. the first guy even knew who the second was. these were the only two people the girl knew from that state and she was now going out with the second guy. wow. sucks for the first. he knew that it sucked a lot but he was still a little pleased that the girl had told her and he hadn't figured out some other way.

the point of this story is that im just wondering how ironic can life be. i think that it can be no more ironic in these sort of sick ways but life does not stop surprising me in this way.

its sickening...

So many words and yet still im at a loss for them.

-Tom-

its the smell...

2004-01-24T04:23:02Z

i cant describe "it"...

not if i tried forever.

i could try but i would not succeed.

although i will try because of "it"...

it's seductive and sweet...

and "it" makes my heart beet.

"it" does make me smile and hold my breath...

i try to look away but it does not matter,
it's the matter thats around me that makes me feel this way

this joyous and painful way to feel.

it is the "it" that drives me insane.

u can carry a picture that fills ur heart with joy...

look at it all day if u want to be coy.

but how do u carry a smell....

how can u take "it" with u?

this is what i want to know....

this is what i will miss.

its the smell that makes me act this way...

do the things i do
and say what i say.

its the smell u see...

u cant blame me
it's the smell

i did nothing wrong...

i was just me

but its the smell that made me blind
so i could not see

u cant blame me
it's the smell

it's the worst and best part of my day
it's their for a second and then goes away

i try to follow
but it does not work

the faster i run
the further it goes

yes distance and time it goes
it goes...

i say to myself
this must be part of hell

i look up and dont want to feel this way
i ask for forgiveness and you'll hear me say...

you can't blame me
it's the smell

it's the smell.

tommyboyw @ 2004-01-22T16:54:00

2004-01-22T22:27:37Z

hey boys and girls....
i had a good time last night at small group and helping out with the middleschoolers even though i didn't do much. i had good talking time with jess d. and if you know jess d. then u know how cool it was. i also had a good time with jed. me and him went to the store and talked about different stuff. talking is always good.

today wasn't so bad. the school day was much better than yesterday's that is for sure. right now im kinda board though. we have a soccer game tonight so im just waiting around for that. i hope we do well.

i like soccer. its kind of like a holy thing to me but not to that extent really. its like it doesn't matter what crap is goin on in the world, or in my life really, whenever i am playing soccer i can just forget about all that stuff.

I really hope it's a good game.

-TJ-

tommyboyw @ 2004-01-19T21:55:00

2004-01-20T03:44:26Z

well....
these past month or so have been pretty interesting for me. i know i dont really update this thing that much better than never right?
this past month ive been extremely happy and extremely sad. ive been scared any worried and content and im not really sure what i am now. i have looked at myself a lot in this past month or so and it has probably been really good for me in more than a few ways.
now many of u probably heard that lindsey and i started goin out and think that is why i have thought of felt all of these things and that would be wrong. im not gunna lie and say that none of it was because of me and lindsey because some of it was, but not all of it. well we talked last night and today and i guess we officially are not goin out any more we are just trying to figure stuff out which is a good thing i guess.

i realize that when i get on here and update this thing all i do is just ramble on.

i have never really been in a relationship with someone until just recently and i dont think im all that great at being in one. im trying to get better and i just hope that i can have a good chance at doin that. im kinda scared that its not gunna work out. im not scared that its not gunna work out because we are gunna fight or someone is gunna do something stupid because if that happens then it does and i know that as long as she doesnt try and hurt me, which she wont, then in the end we will still be friends. im scared of it not working out because we didn't give it a chance.

well if anyone is reading this feel free to ask my about it if u want. ill see you all later.

-TJ-

ok

2003-11-01T05:11:54Z

whats goin on everybody and by everybody im pretty sure that would include lindsey and thats about it because we all know how popular i am. or at least thats all of who i know that reads this. yea, anyways....havent written anything in a little while so i decided that i would so i am. so how are thing goin with all of you? things with me aren't too bad. trick or treat was the other night and that was fun. i had my first in-car that night and then i went and saw kate and her new boyfriend. he doesnt seem like too bad of a guy but i think i will have to get to know him a little better before i make up my mind. but so far so good....i told kate that i "aprove" so she was happy. im not sure what would of happened if i wouldn't of aproved but that doesn't matter because i did.
yea sorry for the stupid long tangent. yea thursday was cool. as i said before things arent too bad. my grades are fairly well but im not to sure about ASL. i dont really like my teacher and i dont think she likes me either so things arent going so well in there but everything else is alright. the only thing that is really frustrating me right now are stupid people. i just dont like it when people are stupid, it perturbs me very much.(or however u say that word)
a lot of people are being stupid right now and its not very much fun. i also hate complainers....winers. see it is ok to call a friend and tell them that ur having a tuff day or whatever but its very annoying to stand their and wine because its cold outside and u need a ride to ur house that is two min. away and u are just too lazy to walk there. that is a good examplee of when someone is being a girl. if u know me u probably know what im talkin about depending on who u are but if u dont just ask im sure i will tell u if u want to know. yea that is mainly what is bothering me right now....that and i also hate it when a couple has to always be joined at the hip whenever they are around each other. it is really bothersome and that is just one thing that always pisses me off. but yea sorry for complaining to all of u about this.
anyways.....im not doin too much saturday so if anybody wants to get together and have some good times they should call me because that would be fun and i will probably be board tomorrow. sunday i get to see david a for a little bit so that should be cool.

well i think im gunna go to bed now because im kinda tired. i will see all u later.

-Tww-

o' boy

2003-10-23T00:33:50Z

Whats goinon everybody? how things be with ya? me? well they aren't too bad. lets just say ive seen better days but its over all good. see im having this little conflict with this group of girls, not "girls", even though right now some of them are definatly being "girls" at the moment. see im just not really sure what to do? some of them have lied to me im sure of and have just really gotten on my nerves and sometimes i think they are trying to and im not really sure what i did but tell them the truth and ask them why they were lying to me. one of them told me that they do some of these things just to piss me off and i cant even fathem how some of them can just flat out lie straight to someone's face of why they would do something just to piss me off. plaese if you have any information on this or any ideas on what i should do please tell me. even if you are one of those girls. well sorry for bothering u all with this random nonsence but if u have any info or wisdom you would like to share please do tell. i guess i will see you all on the flip side.

-Tom J-

"girls"

2003-10-21T22:19:24Z

Well first women....i love woman more than most anything. women are just nonreplacable...there are just certain you can do with women that you cant do with men, and no im not just thinking of all that nasty stuff that just went through ur head. anyways..women are just super uber awesome.
But "girls"....a very different story goes with them. i will try to explain my deffinition of "girls" to you all as best i can so just try and bear with me.
not all females are "girls" but all "girls" are females. A "girls" is a female that has most of the negative steriotypes of girls in general. a girl can be described as a female who lie or cheats. someone who is manipulative and conniving and evil. a backstabber and someone who will lie straight to your face and then go say bad things about u behind your back. they play with your hearts and play with your head. A "girl" isn't very good at speaking their mind. they try to say what they are thinking but are many times unsuccessful, the words just come out differently then they plan and they still think they said it right. in a sum, "girls" are horrible communicators. now just to clarify some of this....just because a female is doing some of these things doesnt mean that i would classify them as a "girl". i might say that they are being a "girl" but that doesnt mean that they are a "girl", there is a big difference. it takes a lot for me to say that someone is a complete girl. so yea i hope that helped u guys out trying to understand all of that even though lindsey is probably the only one reading this and she already knows but thats ok. ill see you guys later i guess. yea and by the way...if anyone ask, me and sonya are married. later all you guys and "girls".....just kidding. i would never be that mean...
peace.

-Thomas J-

whats up?

2003-10-21T02:20:41Z

Whats up everybody. well i just want to first thank my good friend lindsey for giving this journal to me because lindsey a cool person.
Im not really sure what im gunna do with this journal yet and im not sure how often i will update it because i dont get online a ton but we will see what happens.
Today wasn't too great but it could of been worse. their are just some "girls" right now who are kind of pissing me off right now. some of them might even be one of the few people reading this but thats ok i dont really care. if you dont know what a "girl" is dont worry i will explain sometime in the near future because i use that word quite often but for now i must be off. hope all of u have a good night and an even better day tomorrow. Later all you cool cats.

-Tommy-